At the bottom!
06 Apr 2007 Leave a Comment
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Theres nothing worse then feeling to point of your ultimate low, then having someone who you love push you down even farther to the bottom. All I wanted was some support and to be told everything is going to be A-ok. Everyone needs a little reaasurance sometimes!
I think I might be at my breaking point with only one place to go from here!
07 Dec 2006 Leave a Comment
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I’m trying to really stay focused today and get alot done but I just dont feel like doing or caring about anything right now! I just drank a cup of green tea and usually that gives me a little buzz of energy , so Im hoping I can get out of this funk soon! I hate when I come into work feeling like this. Not only do I proceed to get nothing done, but it makes the day drag on for an eternity.
I did absolutely nothing last night and it felt amazing! I had such a bitch of a day yesterday that all I could think about on my drive home was making some yummy chicken dish for dinner and just lounging around , catching up on my dvr’d shows. So thats exactly what I did. Scott had a officer’s meeting and he and some friends went out for a few beers afterwards. I was kind of glad he went out and had some fun because I was so cranky and down, im sure he wouldnt have wanted to be around me.
So I checked my ebay, watched my dvr’d Nip/Tuck and What about Brian, and went to bed early! I woke up this morning so congested and stuffed up that I couldnt for the life of me peel my ass out of bed and get to the gym. Ive sucked with the gym this week. But I guess it isnt good to work out and push yourself when your sick. So im hoping I can shake this cold soon! I love the gym so much, the feeling of getting there and starting my workout! I always feel so amazing when I leave. So awake, alert and refreshed! Ready to start the day! If I dont go, I feel so sluggish in the morning.
11 days until Scotts family comes to stay for the holidays! Im totally freaking out about it. Theres so much to get done at the house before they come. Of course he says not to worry about it. But I want everything to look great for when they arrive and stay! Then Christmas is right around the corner, and after that it will be 2007. How scary is that, that is already 2007. I remember how 2000 felt like it would never come. God this year has flown. Anywho, back to work I go. I am such a slacker today! I must stay focused and get things done!!!
How Depressing!
01 Dec 2006 Leave a Comment
in Depressed
Okay im not trying to be all crazy focused on my calorie
intake, but I just came across this WEBSITE. It has a listing
of the most popular restaurants and their menus nutritional
values. Its so depressing. My favorite things at places like
fridays, mac grill , and ruby’s are peppered with fat and
rediculously high calories. Kind of makes me wish I never
looked at it! lol But oh well , we cant be good all the time!
What a week!
10 Nov 2006 Leave a Comment
in Depressed
If ever there was a week where I was counting down the minutes to the weekend it was this week. All I would like if to just have one week where everything runs smoothly and I don’t have a mini breakdown about something. If I could have one week a month like that, I would be happy! Just when I think Im getting ahead here, everything comes crashing down. Its so completely frustrating and very discouraging. But luckily the weekend is just around the corner! Thank goodness!
I drove out to Kingston last night to have dinner with Beck and Kevin. I needed to get away from here for a night so I thought that would be a nice getaway and I get to see them! We had dinner at this cool italian place. It was so good. But we got huge portions and none of us could eat it all so we all took home more than half of it. It was very good but so filling. I got penne ala vodka. my fave!!! 
The drive home was rough though. I was so tired by the time I left. I contemplated sleeping over and leaving in the morning but I think it would have been worse having to get up at like 530 and drive home and then go right to work. So I ended up getting home around 11:45 or so and went directly to bed!
Scotty has tonight off which will be nice. I think we are most likely just going to hangout at home and relax. Im totally jonesin for a night like that!
Saturday morning Im picking up Ali and were going to yvonnes so she can try on some wedding dresses there. And sunday is a free day, but most likely Ill end up doing house work! Fun stuff! I cant seem to wake up today at all , so Im totally looking forward to sleeping in this weekend! Hopefully this day will go by fast!
Im Beat!!!
29 Jun 2006 Leave a Comment
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I am so beat today! I can not stop yawning. This could be due to the fact that I have not gotten to sleep before 1:00 am almost every night this week. I keep saying I need to get to bed earlier but I never do. I could seriously put my head down at my desk and fall asleep right now. Im freaking exhausted. I can not wait to go home and take a nap. It is long over due. This is why I think my boss definitely needs to put a couch in the conference room upstairs, for napping purposes. Cause let me tell ya, if there was ever a day when I could use a half hour power nap, its today for sure!
Good night last night though. Went for a ride with Tanyette on the bikes up and around saratoga and wilton. I just can’t get enough of riding lately. But that could be due to the fact that the weather is usually crap, so when its nice out, I feel I must take advantage. I got home around 10, threw some laundry in the wash and played on my laptop. Scott got home around 11, we stayed up and talked until like 12:30 and then of course didn’t go right to sleep 
But again thats why Im so damn tired today, I NEED to get more rest! Im making coffee right now so I can try and stay awake! My eye lids feel so heavy right now, its taking all my might to keep them open!
The Deciding Factor!
21 Jun 2006 Leave a Comment
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So It was a tough call tonight. What to have for dinner???? A delicious garlic and 4 cheese french bread pizza?? ( a mere 410 calories, hahaha) or the stupid safe choice of a healthy sandwich , which would consist of turkey, low fat mayo, a wheat english muffin , accompanied by baked crackers. Which one do you think I picked??? I picked the safe choice. Yes I was good. BUT I so wanted that freakin garlic cheese pizza. Damn that pizza!!! And damn the fool who bought it……… Me!
To much time to think
09 Jun 2006 1 Comment
in Depressed
Lately, I feel like my mind is constantly racing! Im always thinking about something in depth! Not sure why exactly. Maybe its just this weather, its a drag, its been raining for like two weeks straight with a glipse of sun here and there. I cant take it anymore. We were planning on riding the bikes up to Americade tomorrow, Scott even took the day off just for it. But when I looked at the weather this morning, its suppose to rain allllllllllllll weekend! Come on enough all ready, Its making me really depressed! I hope the entire summer isnt going to be like this! Im already in a big enough funk, this weather isnt helping!
So were starting to plan our Bermuda Trip! I got some emails from Scotts fam this morning, suggesting some places we may stay at! Heres ONE! And here is the RESORT Scott and I stayed at the last night of our trip in 2004. Grotto Bay, were we stayed last time, is amazing! I loved it there. Both are right on the ocean! Rock! So I guess the trip is the last week of October. So that is still kind of far away, But im still excited!
One last note: THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY!!!!
Ugh!
21 Feb 2006 Leave a Comment
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This day just seems to be be dragging forever. Which is weird because its busier than yesterday but yet yesterday flew by. And its not like I can even just scoot right home from here after work, i have to go right to class. 
Yes im whining today!
Today has been “blame me” day! Every little thing that goes wrong here today is my fault apparantly. When the truth is, its not. But whatever. Im trying to blow it off. But to be honest its really pissing me off because Im the one getting things done. Grrrrr. At least were very busy so thats a good thing. Busy is always good! Its so much nicer when you dont have to worry about making payroll at the end of th week. Its good to sleep at night. lol
I need a much needed mini vacation like woah!!!
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